It's hard for me to contain good news, thus, many have known from early on that we were expecting baby #3 - I am 9 weeks along.
Well, I guess when you share the good news, you've gotta share the bad. An ultrasound confirmed that the baby didn't make it and didn't really get a chance to even form. My body still thinks it's pregnant (my hcg levels are very high), and isn't doing much about it, so now we will wait and see what we need to do from here. It's sad and a big bummer.
I understand now why people wait to tell others - I wasn't expecting the flood of emotions that come when I talk about it. I'm really OK, I've got plenty of blessings to focus on right now, but I really just can't talk about it with anyone yet. I've got two perfect, healthy babies to give me faith that we can try again in the future.
On a happy note, I wanted to share an experience I had last week as we were moving. Yes, we moved. Moving is no fun, but I don't think things could have gone any smoother. We literally moved across the street, we rented a moving van which turned out to not be as crazy as Randy thought it would be, and I was absolutely amazed and humbled by the many hands that were there to help us. Thanks to you all that helped with the move and brought us dinners. And thanks to Randy's parents for watching the boys for a few days.
Anyway, back to the cool story....The move went great, except for one hitch....I lost my wallet. It literally disappeared into thin air. We bought a mattress for Andrew from an ad on KSL (don't worry, it was very clean and kept in plastic) and Randy and I went to pick it up after we were moved in. I pulled my wallet out to pay for the mattress and that was the last time I saw my wallet. We made phone calls and retraced our steps, but the wallet was gone. The only thing I could think of was that I set the wallet down on our car when I helped put the bed rails in, and then we drove off with it still on the car. I quickly reported to my bank and got everything closed and moved on with life.
The next day was Sunday and we went to church. Randy was in the stake clerk's office doing his clerk stuff when the desk phone rang. He answered and spoke with a woman that had found a wallet in her driveway, found the temple recommend that was inside the wallet, and found the Stake information that was on the temple recommend, which traced her to the phone that Randy happened to answer. Randy wanted to surprise me, so he oh-so-slyly slipped out of church to pick up the wallet. Little does he know that the RS president knows all and caught wind of what he was doing even before he returned :-). He was kind of bummed that I wasn't surprised, but when he told me how the wallet was found and how it got back to him, I was in tears. God truly loves me.
13 comments:
So sorry for your loss.
Yea for Townhouses!
Wow! Heavenly Father really does love you.
Nancy, I am so sorry about your pregnancy... pretty much that exact same thing happened to me in between Sophia and Liam. I never really had a chance to get used to the idea of being pregnant before it was gone. That doesn't stop it from hurting though. I had to have a D&C because my body wasn't doing what it was supposed to. I didn't want to talk to anyone about it... Difficult times, let me know if you need anything :)
Oh, my heart aches for your loss. (((Hugs)))
Oh Nancy, I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your loss. I can't imagine how difficult this is for you. You are one very strong and very amazing lady and I'm sure you will come out of this being even stronger. I miss you Nancy. You were my favorite there and I need to come visit and see your new place. You are in my prayers.
Nancy,
I am so sorry. Please know that you are loved by countless people. I have found great comfort the past few months from Presidents Eyring's talk: "The very opportunity for us to face adversity and affliction is part of the evidence of [Heavenly Father and the Savior's] infinite love." I'm sorry you have to face this trial, but many people are praying for you. All my love.
-Shellie
I was 8 weeks when I loss my first baby. My very first ultra sound there was something wrong. They did the blood work and then again 3 days later. My levels were still high so they did another ultra sound and the baby didn't have a heart beat. It was October General Conference and we were sitting in the hosptial watching it waiting for me to go into my first surgery ever. It was hard for David and I because we had this strange peace and thought we weren't reactioning the way we should. I completely understand how you are feeling and if you ever want to talk about it let me know. One day at a time and any emotion you are feeling just let it out. Take care.
Bless your heart, I am so sorry for your loss. You have an amazing testimony and are so strong, but I'm sure this is still rough. We are thinking about you.
Nancy, I am so sorry for your loss! Let me know if I can do anything and let's find a time to get together again soon. Glad the move went well!
Great story Nancy. I'm so sorry for your loss, and will remember you guys in our prayers.
Nancy, my heart goes out to you. So sorry for your loss. What a neat story about your wallet though. Yes, God loves you and watches out for you. I hope your body can take care of things itself; bless your heart if you have to go in for surgery. Know that we love you guys and wish you only happiness. We'll keep you in our prayers.
xoxo
Nancy, you are an amazing example and I'm so glad I had the chance to know you. Hope your cute family is doing well!
We love you Nancy. I'm sure that a lot of people are thinking about you and your cute family right now. I know we are.
what a sweet blessing... that story about your wallet is neat! i can't beleive she called the stake and randy is the one answering how cool!! I am very sorry to hear about your miscarriage...and hope all goes well your recovery.. If you need anything let me know we would help in anyway.
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